December 14, 2017

Beanie Sigel & Jay-Z "Where Have You Been" (2000)

"I'm just like you, but dog I can't see it at all, shit / We never kicked it at all, we never pitched or kicked at a ball / Dog, you never taught me shit / How to fight, ride a bike, fix a flat, none of that sorts of shit," say Beans in arguably one of the best album cuts released on Roc-A-Fella Records. Beyond the punchlines and bar-heavy tracks that the State Property crew delivered on Hov's Dynasty compilation, it's when you dig into the lyrics on "Where You Have Been" that you discover the therapy that music truly provides many artists/fans. Like, where Jay-Z says... "You said that you was coming through, I would stay in the hallway / Always playing the bench (waiting) and that day came and went / FUCK YOU very much, you showed me the worst kind of pain / But I'm stronger and trust me, I will never hurt again / Will never ask mommy "Why daddy don't love me? / Why is we so poor? Why is life so ugly? / Mommy, why is your eyes puffy? / Please don't cry everything'll be alright / I know it's dark now, but we gon' see the light..." When Beanie Sigel and Jay-Z followed up the track on Beans' song "Still Got Love For You" off The Reason, it gave some reprieve, but the pain and darkness remained. Both songs are masterpieces but are so vulnerable that it seems fans champion them more behind closed doors. If they let you know anything, it's that struggle is real and you can overcome it. In their extensive catalogs, it's track like this I'm most thankful for... Now, if only Beans and Hov could fix their own fractured relationship, who knows what that'd bring next.